Cory Doctorow posted a link to a list of quotes from this year's Clarion workshop. It's amazing, and digging through it is lighting up all sorts of points in my head about the story I'm currently working on (for the WriteWorld Album challenge). The quote that stuck out to me the most dramatically was this one:
“You have to be willing to be bad in public, to be a writer.”
Abstractly speaking, I know that's true. I know that I have to put stuff out there, and I also know that the more I work, the more painful it's going to be to go back and look at my old stuff. But in practice, I'm not very good at getting over it.
I mean, it's fine on the blog. I produce so many posts every day that it's not hard to convince myself that the stuff I'm embarrassed to have said is so buried that no one will ever see it. And, to any historians who might be combing through my archive to write a book about me (just in case), a lot of the most embarrassing stuff back there is stuff I don't believe anymore, or regret saying. But some of it is just stuff I wish I'd said better.
But with short stories, I have so few, and with none in public, I feel like I'll be throwing a spotlight on my failure. That needs to be at the top of my list of things to get over -- in fact, I think I'm going to add some stuff about that to my SuperBetter account. It's not like trying to sell my writing will prevent me from saving money, and it will push me towards being better at the chance of making money doing what I want to do with my life.
Relatedly, I am applying to Clarion this year SO HARD. Cory Doctorow and Kelly Link are both going to be resident teachers. So, like, wish me luck and stuff.