Vi Hart, "Feeling sad about tragedy"

Vi Hart's latest video "Feeling sad about tragedy" is about the shootings, within days of each other, of YouTuber Christina Grimmie, and then of 49 people in a gay club, both in Orlando.

I didn't know about Christina's shooting. (I didn't know about Christina.) But Vi's video felt deeply relevant to many people I care about and admire. 

Vi so often says things in ways that make me wish I had thought them. I show people her video "On Gender" when I want to explain my feelings about gender identity. I've been watching her videos for years, and I've been thrilled that the internet has opened up platforms people like her can inhabit.

I don't want to be afraid for her. I hadn't much thought to be, before now. If you had asked me whether I thought she had a risk of dangerous fans, I'd have said yes, but I wouldn't have had that line of thought just sitting on my own. She's so anonymous. I think I've seen her face, in other people's videos, but I only ever see her hands in hers. I have no idea if Vi Hart is the name she goes by in meatspace. 

Her refrain from the middle of this video, "I'm not supposed to be right," sends shivers down my spine. I recognize that feeling. Of wanting to be a good person, who believes in love and has faith in people, of wanting choices made from fear or distrust to be unjustified, of wanting to be rewarded for taking a risk on the good faith of other humans. I'm sure I don't know it as well as anyone who's read by strangers as a woman, though. 

When Faith and I tried to write a post about Orlando for Solarpunk Press, my first pass included a lot of commentary about the media's tendency to reduce and splinter narratives, asking solarpunks to resist the encouragement to pit narratives about gun violence against against narratives of homophobia against narratives of individual disposition. This was a product of all those, and more.

Vi Hart argues here that these shootings are a product of our system's success in teaching men that violence against women won't be punished. She's right. It's also true that if these men had had less access to guns, they would have caused less damage. The Pulse shootings are also about racism, and about homophobia. Christina's shooting is also about misogyny, and about male entitlement.

I want the people I care about to feel safe. I care about Vi Hart, and it's upsetting to know that if I tried to express that to her there's a good chance it'd read as threatening.

I wouldn't blame her for reading it that way -- she's right to be cautious. There's no easy way to tell "I hope that society changes in a way that makes it safer for you and for everyone" from "I've decided that it would be okay for me to kidnap you and put you in a bunker, because there are scary people out there and I don't understand that I'm one of them."

There's no way to tell whether hypothetical-bunker-guy would turn violent when he finds out somebody doesn't want to be kidnapped so he can protect them.

This also makes me think about, and worry for, many other people I care about, who I do have an actual relationship with. 

In the first episode of his new podcast, Revisionist History, Malcolm Gladwell talks about moral licensing as it applies to societies: how token signs of progress get treated as permission to regress in daily practice. White people who voted for Barack Obama, for example, often held themselves less accountable afterward to resist holding racist views. The fact that the Republican party followed two terms of Obama by nominating Donald Trump is a pretty good example of how this is playing out in American politics. 

I know how Vi is feeling right now: the temptation to approach tragedy and crisis analytically is strong. But it doesn't work -- not on its own, anyway. We need detailed and practical exercises in empathy, individually and as communities and societies.

If I had to choose a cave...

Earlier today, a friend asked me, if I were to live in a cave, what kind of cave would I choose? (She said she'd live in a cave by the sea, explaining "It'd be salty and cool. I'd become a disgusting cave monster.")

I didn't have a good answer at the time, but I've been thinking about it, and I remembered the mine from Cody's Lab:

I don't know that I'd want to live in this mine in particular, but having a hobbit hole style abandoned mine to live in would be really cool. I think I'd want to take it in a kind of earth house direction, with a main house built up around the outside using deliberately shaped landscape, and a labyrinthine cave system inside with lots of room for events, guests, projects, and so on. (So, much bigger than Cody's mine.)

Now that I'm thinking about it: I'd love to have a house that contained a mine big enough to host a small convention in. My main apprehension about living in a cave is being far away from people, but if I could routinely bring large numbers of people to my house as guests, and still have plenty of space to spend time alone, I'd love to live in a cave like that.

Sunvault: Stories of Solarpunk & Eco-Speculation

I just realized I haven't blogged about this yet!

Sunvault is a kickstarter project for an anthology of solarpunk fiction. At 9 days in they're at about $2,000, out of their $5,000 goal, and they have a lot of cool and reasonably priced backer rewards.

I'm really excited to see another solarpunk publication in the works, and I can't wait to see it get funded -- I hope they hit their goal in time to reach for some of their stretch goals, too.

I'm backing at the $25 level, to get a paperback copy of the anthology and spray art by Phoebe Wagner, one of the two editors. (Because it includes shipping for a painting, that one ends up being $44 in the U.S.)

Y'all should definitely check it out, and pledge.

On solar panels

I'm writing a second draft of my final project proposal for Green Cities, and I got a little more feelings-y than I intended to when I got to the bit about solar panels, so I'm going to repost it here for my blog post today.

(In a section on intended specific design elements)

Solar trees -- These would probably have phone chargers or other useful electronic elements connected to them, but mainly I'd like to put them in all over the place because I've noticed in my time at Hampshire so far that I have a much stronger sense of the cardinal directions, and consequently my physical presence in a place on earth, because I know which direction the solar panels point. I think solar arrays evoke a sense of connection with the natural world, beyond just the immediate "I'm near plants and animals" kind, but of our physical being in a massive cosmos, and the existence of natural forces that are within our ability to harness but not manipulate or control. I think their presence as a physical symbol helps counterbalance both the egocentric feeling that humans are in full control of the environment, and the solipsistic feeling evoked by hyper-commercialized strips and suburban life.

Park design for Hampshire's lawn

My most recent assignment for Green Cities was to design and illustrate a plan for a new green space, taking up a large rectangular segment of land at the front of the campus. Currently it's a wildflower field -- it was recently mowed but usually it's overgrown with local plants.

After the images is my essay explaining the park, cut and edited for presenting as a blog post.

 I really like the field as it exists, and wanted to leave a lot of room for natural growth. So, I started by putting bridges over the space, where people could go and stand out over the field, which would be unnavigably thickly grown.

I felt like that wasn’t interesting enough, though. The design I had felt like it could be a site of complex exploration and mystery, but the actual paths available didn’t actually sustain that feeling. So I added paths on the ground.

I also decided to attempt to plan where the water in the space would flow. Ideally I’d like to bring in a part of a nearby river’s flow and run it under the tower at the front of the space, where I’d also add a micro hydro power plant, then directing the water back out to the Connecticut River, probably by way of the Fort River, but I couldn’t quickly find sufficiently detailed water maps of the area so I gave up on that for the purposes of this design.

For accessibility, I made sure that there are no areas that don’t have at least one paved road leading to them, and each platform has at least one bridge leading to it that’s roughly set up to accommodate the ramp incline standard of 1 inch rise per 12 inches run, though if I were actually planning this for construction I’d spend a lot more time making sure I got that right. There would also be an elevator in the algae tower, as well as stairs.

Each of the platforms is large enough to accommodate a whole class at a time. The largest, highest platform, on top of the algae tower, contains an amphitheater and a garden.

The garden would be planted and maintained so that the canopy it creates is roughly level with the top of the amphitheater, as if the treetops were the surface of a lake. 

The algae tower is a two-story tall algae-powered light. Other smaller lights throughout the park will also be algae powered. Inside the tower would be an aquaponics lab and classroom, and, if the river works, a hydro electric plant that also provides power to the college.

I hope that the partial ceiling of the bridges, tall grass and large plants on the edges of the paths, student art, and the watery green light of the lamps, makes people wandering the lower park feel like they’re in a bottle universe that’s even further separate from the world than the college is, and is definitely profoundly separate from the bridges above: Ideally I want them to feel like two different parks.

(In writing it’s occurring to me that I could strongly accentuate this effect by building frames around the entryways to the lower park that form thresholds to entry -- you couldn’t go around them because of the overgrown grass, so they might create a very mystical feeling, and give students the opportunity to tangibly leave their external sense of stress outside the park as they pass into it.)

The bridges, on the other hand, would be designed to give a very strong sense of presence in the Hampshire campus and its surroundings. If the lower park is meant to be like stepping out of the map, then the upper is meant to be like stepping up to look at it. 

If possible, they’d be accoustically designed to direct sound well within themselves, but not out; people standing on the ground or on another disc shouldn’t be able to clearly hear two people speaking to each other at a normal volume on another disc. This would be good for classes held on the discs, and for privacy, and to preserve the sense of otherworldliness on the ground.

Solarpunk: an introduction: a pamphlet; redux

I turned in a copy of my solarpunk pamphlet in the Aesthetics of Social Engagement today, and got a whole ton of feedback, which I will now be incorporating into a second draft.

First of all, apparently it reads less like an introduction than a manifesto. After hearing and responding to several classmates' and the professor's thoughts, I've decided that it may be worth dialing back the amount of politics that are laid out in any substantial detail in the pamphlet, making room for (a.) illustrations, (b.) a little more about the aesthetics and how people can participate, and (c.) a sense of welcomeness that is kind of annihilated by the wall of political text currently in the pamphlet.

I think I'm going to split off a lot of the extra material onto the web, maybe work with Faith on a "New to Solarpunk" hub on the Solarpunk Press website. 

Solarpunk Press update and also forgot to do work

I just realized it's 10 of midnight and I haven't blogged yet.

The first issue of Solarpunk Press's print edition is nearly finished! I worked on it a bunch today. I'd love to say that's what I was doing just now when I forgot to do my blog post, but it wasn't that. I'm playing minecraft.

I have actually gotten a ton of stuff done, today and in the past few days. But as of the last two hours? Nope, just Minecraft.

Solarpunk: An introduction: A pamphlet

I've been telling a lot of people about solarpunk since I got to Hampshire, so I decided, to make it a little easier (and also a little bit as homework for the Aesthetics of  Social Engagement) to make a pamphlet that hits all the major points that I often don't have the energy or verbal dexterity to fully articulate.

Here it is -- printed out double-sided, it can be folded into quarters and form a very neat, small, storable and distributable object. 

Solarpunk Press on Patreon

This is the end of my pre-scheduled blog posts, and starting Monday I'll be back to 5 posts a week, written pretty much as they post. The first several will most likely be pretty stressed out. I will have just started living at a new school.

Anyway, I figured this was a good time to remind everyone that the web magazine I started with my partner, "Solarpunk Press," launched its patreon campaign last week! Our first issue comes out October 5, and we're very excited to be so far along. If you want to get a copy of the very first issue of Solarpunk Press in print, the Patreon's the only way to get it -- and the print run is going to be very small. So check it out while there's still time!

Day 5 of 5 scheduled videos to relieve pressure of obligations

Solarpunk fashion; punk; politics

I'm still AFK this week -- the blog's on autopilot with videos -- but I wrote this on Tumblr earlier anyway so I figured I might as well re-post here.

So there’s another person trying to argue that solarpunk isn’t punk, and in responding to them just now I had a thought about the punk aesthetic, and why solarpunk isn’t deliberately grungy. (Not that solarpunk’s grunge-averse – I don’t think anyone would say that – but you can definitely look pretty mainstream, if very weird, and still come off as vividly solarpunk. At least so far.)

Punk had an aggressively anticapitalist aesthetic. The grotesque, unfinished, hostile appearance of punk art and fashion was meant to make it unmarketable, beyond the reach of capitalist reconceptualizing.

That didn’t work. Punk has been packaged and labeled and sold. Punk’s not dead, but its wardrobe might be. 

Punk clothes were chosen as a political act, but the clothes themselves weren’t inherently political. And as I realized this, I realized that we’re already responding to that problem in solarpunk very effectively.

Solarpunk style and aesthetic guidelines and goals may not be uniquely resistant to marketing – the sale of punk all-but-proved it’s impossible to make manufacturable things unmarketable on purpose – but that’s okay, because the politics are sewn right into the fabric.

Solar cell umbrellas, piezoelectric running suits, UV resistant shawls, plus a strong interest in encouraging individuals to be socially conscious and avoid appropriative or exploitative styles wherever possible – if the system wants to market solarpunk styles, that means it’s gonna have to start caring about the ethics and utility, because that’s not an afterthought in solarpunk clothes. That’s thing-number-one. 

(For the record: I don’t think that’s incompatible with my comments in “Solarpunk fashion; fantasy; function” where I defended the value of non-functional solarpunk props: I think anyone in the community can recognize the difference between the aspirational work of an individual limited by resources and reality; and an exploitative work by a corporation, preying on a community’s desire to pursue change.)

The grotesqueness strategy of 80′s and 90′s punk failed to guard against commercialization. Maybe the solarpunk approach is to infect the commercial institutions with incentive toward ethics, instead.

Launch day is going really well

i haven't been at home very much today -- I've been checking on submissions from my phone and from coffee shops on my laptop -- while I get other management stuff done.

But, hey: Solarpunk Press is open for submissions! 

And I'm writing this on my phone during the intermission at a play. So I'm going to just post now. Everyone check out Solarpunk Press!

IT'S ALLIIIIiiivve...ish

Solarpunk Press is up and running! By which I mean the website works and there are two posts on the official blog. (One of them's a recording of me reciting a poem.) Submissions still don't open for another week, and it'll still be over a month before we have the Patreon up, and over a month after that before we publish our first piece of original fiction.

In the meantime, we're going to be doing a lot of preparing and a lot of practicing and we're very, very excited.

Back from Readercon with news

Wow, a lot just happened.

If you follow me on Tumblr, you might have noticed that I'm gearing up to open submissions for a new solarpunk web magazine! Submissions are going to open on July 27, which I'll definitely post about here. 

I spent most of today working on stuff for that -- so I have a whole lot to talk about, but I don't want to say any of it just yet. The stuff we've already said out loud, though, is that we're going to pay $0.03/word for stories between about 2,000 and 5,000 words, to do 12 issues of 1 story a month starting in October. We'll be setting up a Patreon account in hopes of making the project self-sustaining, and hopefully of making it bigger, but we feel like even if we have to pack it in after 12 stories it's worth it to get some good solarpunk fiction out there.

Also we're gonna podcast it.

I love Readercon.

If you want to know right away when submissions open, subscribe to the mailing list at I'm going to send exactly one email out on that list, then delete all the subscribers, so you don't have to worry about ever getting spam from me there.

Readercon 26: Solarpunk and Ecofuturism

So, I didn't end up liveblogging the Solarpunk panel. (I forgot to bring my laptop.) But here is a summary of the major points I got down in my notes and/or remembered:

Romie Stott, the panel leader, is the author of Postorbital, that Tumblr with the really cool, sometimes Solarpunk, tiny super short very brief flash fiction.

The other panelists were Jeff Hecht, who is a journalist for the magazine New Scientist, and writes occasional short SF pieces for the science journal Nature.

Michael J. Deluca is an enthusiastic environmentalist with a house covered in solar panels, and he just edited the last edition of Lady Churchill's Rosebud Wristlet, a short fiction magazine put out by Small Beer Press. The theme of the issue was EcoFuturism.

Michael J. Daley is a former renewable energy activist (Not, like, no longer supports renewable energy, but no longer currently working for particular campaigns.) He's written two novels that deal with climate change and solar power. He was by far the panelist most critical of Solarpunk, but for the most part it seemed like it was less a fundamental objection than a not-his-cup-of-tea kind of thing.

Rob Killheffer is an SF/F writer, reviewer, editor and critic, who has been following the trends in climate change SF for a long time. He said he had seen mostly the kind of apocalyptic failure-mode storytelling that the Solarpunk community is specifically responding to.

They talked about the community as a fandom without a subject, or without a specific canon to organize around -- the idea that Solarpunk is a fandom for the future, or for a particular kind of future. One of the panelists (I failed to write down which) said that Cyberpunk was similar to Solarpunk in that regard -- less deliberately or self-consciously, but that Cyberpunk was at least as much about a particular aesthetic and lifestyle lived in real time as it was about the relatively small core of Cyberpunk literature.

Daley pointed out that the technology Solarpunk is dealing with is overwhelmingly tech that already exists, and that just hasn't been widely implemented yet. (He explained that he wasn't very interested in science fiction that wasn't about science that is, in fact, fictional.)

He mentioned the famous William Gibson quote, "The future is already here — it's just not very evenly distributed."

Stott responded to the point about whether SF about non-fictional tech was boring, saying she'd heard from scientists that they were actively interested in seeing more fiction exploring the meaningful functionality of emerging tech -- that it's the scientists' jobs to create cool stuff, and other people's (writers') jobs to work out how people are going to use that stuff.

Someone -- I missed who -- mentioned Low-Tech Magazine, which is devoted to countering the narrative that every new problem should be solved by the liberal application of new technology. In particular he pointed out that the battery problem with alternative energy can be solved by using power to elevate water, which can then be poured out to generate new power.

Daley brought up the idea of grid parity -- the point at which solar panels become economically more cost-effective than running a power grid, which he suggested would be the fundamental tipping point for alternative energy.

There were a couple suggestions about the kinds of stories that Solarpunk writers might tell -- one suggestion was about a person dealing with living through an extreme weather event of the sort that climate change will definitely start to cause (and has already started to cause) in a world organized both to diminish or reverse the effects of climate change, and to help people survive in the new reality of the world in which this change did, in fact, happen, and does, in fact, cause problems. Another suggestion was for a power department -- like a fire department -- whose job is to rush out and restore power to broken personal systems in individuals' homes before their battery backup runs out, the way fire fighters rush out to put out fires before the house burns down.

They repeatedly used the words Utopia and Utopian throughout the panel to describe Solarpunk, and the criticism of that word choice never came up -- but this is a very big topic in an hour-long panel. Hopefully, this is the sort of thing that picks up enough steam to get a whole bunch of panels next year.

Readercon has a Solarpunk panel!

It’s called “Solarpunk and Eco-Futurism,” and it’s on Friday at 6 p.m. Here’s the panel description covering the concept and listing the panelists.

Solarpunk and Eco-Futurism. Michael J. Daley, Michael J. Deluca, Jeff Hecht, Rob Kilhefer, Romie Stott (leader). In August 2014, Miss Olivia Louise wrote a Tumblr post proposing the creation of a new subgenre: solarpunk. Solarpunk, sometimes called eco-futurism, would be set in a semi-utopian future visually influenced by Art Nouveau and Hayao Miyazaki, and built according to principles of new urbanism and environmental sustainability—an “earthy” handmade version of futuretech, in opposition to the slick, white, spacebound surfaces of 1980s futurism. Solarpunk blogs have since proliferated, as Tumblr users like SunAndSilicon create and aggregate concept art and brainstorm solarpunk’s technological and societal shifts, enthusiastically building a shared-world fandom with no single owner or defining central text. For some, building solarpunk is an escapist fantasy. Meanwhile, in San Francisco there have been meatspace conventions to develop some kind of manifesto, with the hope of eventually moving realworld society in a solarpunk direction. What, if any, are the precursors to this kind of grassroots genre creation? Is it an inevitable outgrowth of fan-funded niche publishing through crowdfunding? Is solarpunk’s locavore pro-tech optimism in the face of climate change a distinctly Millenial backlash to Gen-X dystopias? And can the inevitable contradictions of a crowdsourced utopia survive the rigors of critical reading?

I'm so excited you have no idea.

Solarpunk and post-employment

I responded to a post on my solarpunk tumblr earlier today, asking why the Solarpunk community seemed to be taking it for granted that we'd have a lot of free time. I wanted to repost it here.


First of all, this is a really good question. I think the Solarpunk community is justified in believing we can tend towards more free time in a Solarpunk community, but coming out of a Capitalist one that’s not going to happen organically.

Part of it is that a lot of us are definitely conceptualizing a lot of overlap between labor and free time. For the Solarpunk who loves large-scale art projects, re-paving the town square might feel more like a free time kind of activity than labor.

This ambiguity, generated by the community motivation to change attitudes towards labor from the oppressive ones that come from capitalism, is, to my mind, a positive attribute of Solarpunk communities, but it needs to be considered critically to resist corruption.

But aside from that, a huge amount of this free time can be generated simply by providing for people regardless of employment.

Study after study has shown that the majority of full-time employees do about 3 hours of work in an 8-hour day. Those same employees do 3 hours of work in a 6 hour day, 3 hours of work in a 3 hour day, 2 hours of work in a 2 hour day, and so on.

The fact is for most jobs there isn’t enough to do to justify making somebody sit at a desk for 40 hours a week, and most people can’t actually physically or emotionally handle the load of 40 hours of actual work every week.

As it stands, the middle class already have about 25 extra hours a week, but they risk their livelihood by not spending those 25 hours in a state of restrained anxiety.

Other jobs may end up taking up whole days, like a lot of retail work or physical labor. But some of that work can be made massively redundant with new technology. 3D printing makes every plastic object less than a cubic foot in size available without the intervention of a retail location. Better 3D printing may do the same for metals, electronics, even food or molecular structures like medicine – and certainly will make plastic things available more quickly and in larger size.

Fast food, too, will probably close to completely go away when most people have the time and money to do their own cooking. Certainly some people go to McDonald’s because they like it, but not enough to keep them in business: most of their money comes from people so overburdened that they have to get breakfast and lunch that takes 5 minutes to grab and doesn’t require you to get out of your car.

This video, CGP Grey’s “Humans Need Not Apply,” covers a whole bunch of reasons why employment is pretty soon going to stop being a thing most people do. With improving technology, there will definitely be enough additional free time for interested people to take up hobby or personal farming.

With that disintegration, coupled with a well-organized community prepared to support the mass of unemployed citizens, hopefully there’ll be enough fluidity in the job market that everyone who wants to do stuff can take up jobs in the stuff they want to do, to the degree of involvement they’re comfortable with. Or something close to that.

Thereby, everyone will have more free time, and the work that happens will be a voluntary use of free time by the people doing it.

Thoughts on marriage equality and solarpunk

I wrote this today for my solarpunk blog, and wanted to repost it here.


Today the Supreme Court of the United States of America ruled in favor of the legality of same-sex marriage, which is a move that I support, as a nonbinary bisexual person and also as a person with a conscience.

On my personal blog, though, so far today, I’ve reblogged basically no celebratory posts. Instead, the posts that have caught my attention to signal-boost are the ones highlighting the importance of sticking to the fight for LGBTQQIAAP+ civil rights, human rights, and protection.

It’s still legal in many states to fire someone, or to refuse to rent to someone, or deny various services to someone, based on their sexuality or gender identity. In 49 out of 50 states it’s legal to fight a murder charge with a defense of “trans panic” – which is to say, you can successfully defend yourself against legal consequences for murdering a person by saying “I only did it because I found out they were trans.”

This is an important and significant (and extremely overdue) step in US civil rights. But a lot of LGBTQQIAAP+ activists have expressed fear that this one issue has become such a visible and central benchmark that many people will feel that there’s no more work to be done; that what was yesterday a gigantic swell of support for the LGBTQQIAAP+ community will tomorrow be a popped bubble; that we’ll face a renewed wave of apathy that will turn into new hostility when we ask for help on these other serious issues.

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When I imagine solarpunk communities for my own writing, more often than not what I’m imagining is a city’s disenfranchised LGBTQQIAAP+ community, especially homeless youth, banding together to protect each other in an environment where they can openly be themselves. To me, solarpunk and LGBTQQIAAP+ activism are inextricably linked.

For the most part, when I talk about what solarpunk is to me, I emphasize that my vision of solarpunk is not the only vision, and that I welcome people to come to it in a different way.

On this topic, though – on LGBTQQIAAP+ activism – I submit that explicit support is an essential solarpunk value. I submit that if your solarpunk is transphobic, queerphobic, homophobic, biphobic, transmisogynistic, gender-binarist, or otherwise exclusionary of LGBTQQIAAP+ people, it’s not real solarpunk. That you’re doing it wrong.

If solarpunk communities are to do better than the civilization they’re combating, they need to be proactively safe spaces for trans, queer, lesbian, bisexual, asexual, aromantic, intersex, gay, pansexual, questioning, and so on…, community members.

I feel the same way about inclusion of race, religion, gender, culture, language, disability, neurodivergence, illlness, and so on – and to be honest I don’t expect this post to be controversial. On these topics I’ve seen almost nothing but open and enthusiastic support for many marginalized groups.

But I did want to say something out loud. None of these oppressions are over.

– T.X. Watson

My Solarpunk blog got featured on another Solarpunk blog!

I'm beaming with pride about this today, and to be honest I'm sure some people are sick of hearing it. But other people only keep up with me through this blog, and I'm proud of this, so I'm posting it here anyway. Permapunk has been featuring notable Solarpunk blogs this week in celebration of hitting 300 followers, and today I was picked. And the post is, like, so flattering you guys.


If you aren’t already following watsons-solarpunk, then that must be one cozy rock you’re under (maybe an Earthship, that would make more sense).

Watson, and co-contributor Faith, are doing a fantastic job of pinning down the overarching concepts of the genre. As a lover of wall-of-text blogs, I’m always pleased to see Watson’s Solarpunk Blog on my dash.

I almost shirked this post yesterday because my kid won’t let me sleep like a normal human this week… It’s getting to me.