I looked so dour in the last episode of my vlog? Like, completely deflated. I've been thinking about that for a few days. 

I just recorded the next episode, it's currently traveling from my phone to my Google Drive, and I don't know whether I managed to seem any more energetic. I definitely had a topic I was more specifically passionate about. But I had the idea for it two days ago? And I worry that I got through all my anger thinking it through and none of it actually made it onto the track.

I feel so different, so unlike myself when it's been months since I've been around friends every day. My flywheel's not spinning.