Creepy stories and imaginary songs

ok so not only did I forget to blog yesterday until after midnight, but I'm about to write about a dream I had. So idk if this is peak boring but I don't feel awesome about where my creative energy is at right now.

CW: death mention, unreality, subconscious suicidal ideation?

The dream I had last night had a lot going on in it, but the only part I definitely remember is the part where I got on stage at a stadium-size show to do a cover of a Smiths song. In the dream, the song was about being in love with a friend and that friend being in love with you, and there was a metaphor about being able to fly. Like, float. We could hold hands and jump and would be on top of a roof, and then bounce down safely as we drifted towards the ground. I couldn't remember the lyrics until I started, and when I did they came to me, and I flew out over the crowd and into the song.

When I woke up, I had "There is a light that never goes out" stuck in my head. Particularly, this sequence:

And if a double-decker bus
Crashes into us
To die by your side
Is such a heavenly way to die
And if a ten-ton truck
Kills the both of us
To die by your side
Well, the pleasure - the privilege is mine

I've been watching a lot of the YouTube channel "Night Mind" lately, and one thing that often comes to mind is I find it difficult to wrap my head around how creators of horror make these surreal decisions about the realities of their works. This is the kind of thing I mean. Dreaming about a song, and knowing it's about love and lightness and fun, and waking up and realizing that the song is about wanting to die.

Don't worry, I'm safe, I'm not planning to hurt myself. But damn that was a disturbing experience.