I have been a mess lately. If my web presence is a barometer for how OK I am, this past couple weeks is a great indicator of the crisis I'm in. I have been spending whole days basically grieving the fact that I can't generate the energy and momentum necessary to do even basic creative labor, like writing a post that has a title more thought through than "AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA."
I'm tired of posting unfinished work, but right now everything I'm doing is in a state of absolute incompleteness. The thought occurs to me that I will have to reckon with this much more deeply when I actually have the bandwidth: doing big, meaningful, thoughtful creative work is not easy to align with doing work that can sustain a creative career.
I'm about to take a break from my vlog, after uploading the final episode of series 5, which is filmed but not yet edited. I'll be coming back after the end of this month.
I'm going to be honest, I'm really excited about how many complete paragraphs and capitalized sentences are in this blog post. So, like, that's where I'm at.