ugh (volume like 30)

So, I've got to have shared this video like a dozen times here before. It's my go-to "some shit's really going wrong in my head" video. 

This week, the pertinent passage is:

I've noticed, and I don't know if anybody else has noticed this, but like moments of extreme success are depression triggers for me. Something wonderful will happen, and I'm like 'oh, yay,' and then like three days later I won't be able to get out of bed. Fuck success! Jesus, why did you do this to me, what's wrong with you, evolution! Why did you give me that gene?

Okay, so how great Arisia was isn't the only reason I feel like I've had the soul bled out of me this week. There's also the fact that I was fired out of the blue from a freelance job over a misunderstanding. It's really disheartening to work really hard to try and make a project successful then get told you're sabotaging it.

But, the point is, I feel like shit right now, and I really wish I didn't.