Pathological design

I spent maybe four hours awake during daylight today. Tops. 

Since Friday's post, I've gone through two or three more iterations of the note-taking insert. I haven't printed out the last one yet, because I figure I'm probably going to come up with more things I want to change, and I don't want to waste paper.

(For example: I put a spot for a timestamp on the new sheet. About ten minutes ago, it occurred to me that I should put the AM/PM box before the actual time, so that the whole title alphabetizes into chronological order. And now as I write that, it occurs to me that it wouldn't work, because 12-hour time doesn't alphabetize correctly because 12:40 PM would come after 2:13 PM, even written as 02:13 PM. On the other hand, though, I don't want to put military time on my sheets because that's a whole other cognitive process I have to go through every time I start a page. What I'll probably do instead is keep the time stamp as-is, maybe put it after the page location, and add a page number count box after the date.)

I'm not actually sure how well I'm handling my anxiety about college. I'm eating horribly, my sleep schedule is fucked up, and I've been having stress dreams about it. But I don't really have much of a functional alternative for food, my sleep schedule is primarily dictated by work -- both my job and the fact that in the middle of the night it's quiet and I can think straight. And stress dreams are kind of normal, right?

At least I switched from buying hundreds of dollars in office supplies to tweaking an InDesign page sixteen or seventeen times a day.